Motivation

I don't think I have ever been less motivated in my entire life.

I guess the only real goals I have set out in front of me at the moment are so distant that it is difficult getting all of the little, less significant things finished. I mean, I'm struggling to get out of bed to read children's books, which normally I love!

And yes, I am spending my night of Halloween, in my room, alone, doing homework..cuz I'm just that cool.

Winter Break

Yes, I'm already writing a post about how much I want it to be winter break! 

No winterim for me this year..

I figure this winter break I can just kick back at home and relax, right?! WRONG!

I need to get my experience hours done!

As I'm working on my portfolio, I am finding it rather difficult to come up with artifacts without any clinical evaluations to include..maybe I should have helped with Financial Park..

Well, hopefully the teachers I contacted get back to me relatively quickly! 

Also, I can't wait to be in Green Bay for over a month! I'm so excited to see Anchorman 2 over break, it comes out December 20th! Date night! Woot Woot! Also, I'm looking forward to going to the Walk of Lights at the GBBG. It's always so gorgeous! I also hope to go ice skating this winter, and maybe sledding!

Momma's Classroom

I've never had a very close relationship with my mother. 

Today, I sort of regret that.

I'm sitting in her third and fourth grade classroom and it makes me realize she's a lot better teacher than I ever realized. Maybe it's because she has always liked third grade the most. I only had her as a fifth and sixth grade teacher or as a seventh and eighth grade science teacher.

Sitting in here also makes me excited to have a classroom of my own.

Midterms

In most of my classes I don't really have midterms! However, there are tests that conveniently line up with midterms. So, I still classify them as that.

My only "real" midterm was Thursday in Math 119. Talk about easy.

My test in History today was absolutely awful. Oh, and it was only the essay portion. The rest is online and I have to take before fall break.

Ugh. I'm sick of college already.

Miley

Last week I watched Miley Cyrus' documentary "Miley: The Movement."

I think I have a slight woman crush on her.

Weird, I know.

Everyone says she's a skank and a slut. Especially since the VMAs and her WreckingBall video. But I really admire her. Those things took guts. They took passion for music to overlook what everyone is going to think about you. I wish I was that confident.

I'm not going to lie, I do miss the old Miley. The Miley with beautiful long brown hair, the Hannah Montana Miley.

But I like the new Miley too. I mean, not many people can pull off that hair, and I think she does!

The thing I like most about new Miley is she seems more human. She knows people are going to give her shit about her music and how she dresses, but she forgets all of that. 

She follows her dreams. I wish I could do the same thing. But just like her, my dream at the moment is looked down on too. I'm just not as confident.

Cut Through the American Noise

American Noise by Skillet just came on my iTunes while I was studying.

With all the things I've struggled with just this past week, it really hit home. I'm so glad I bought Skillet's new cd after seeing them at Lifest. It is probably one of the most motivating and home-hitting cds I've heard.

Here's the refrain from American Noise.

Times will be bad times will be good 

Things I wish I hadn't done and some I wish I would 

Cutting through the American noise

You’ve got a voice and a song to sing (and a song to sing) 

Drink deep in the morning 

Drink deep in the morning 

See what the day will bring 

I guess the part that hits me the most is that no matter how bad our past is, or how much we regret what we have done we can always look forward. 
We can start the next day over. That's what's keeping me going, because not much else is at this point.

Loss for Words

I have never been so stressed about being at a loss for words. I hate that this is creating separation and making me confused about everything. I just hope I don't need to take a step back before we can take a step forward.

Ugh.

Western Civilizations

So yesterday I wrote briefly about my profs, so now I'm going to complain about one of my least favorite classes.

History 103. Western Civilizations.

I have spent over 100 print credits for this class, printing off papers I am required to read. 

I failed the first test, but did fine on the essay portion.

The teacher knows I'm trying hard, but I have such a hard time with history. I honestly would probably remotely enjoy the class if it were any other subject area. 

I've never enjoyed history. That's why in high school I took America at War and did none of the homework! But I still got an A in the class, good thing Mac got lazy and just gave me that grade, because I certainly didn't even do half of the homework..

Anywho, I have to figure out a way to get history pounded into my head for the sake of not failing college.

Ugh, back to studying....

Profs

Since the semester is quite far along, I thought I'd write a little bit about each of my profs.

Steely-HIST 103
I hate this man. He's from Alabama or some southern state like that. He's fat and obnoxious. I realized yesterday in class why I hate him. He reminds me of Erich Johnson. This guy is exactly how Erich will be when he's 45+ and still single.

Knorr-ED 102
Knorr=hilarious. There is not a guy that makes me more motivated and excited to become a teacher! Yesterday before my group presentation he told us we all looked good. I was going for that sexy kindergarten teacher look ;) Anywho, after our presentation he shared two random things with the class.     1) He had been sitting in his office that morning with his classes on searching frantically throughout the room, for his glasses. Okay, that sounded a lot funnier when he explained it.
2) He talked about two fashion styles. When he first started teaching at CUW, this was the style....

And yes, he did in fact talk about Britney Spears. He continued to say, "Well I mean I'm a guy, so a lot of the time I didn't mind...but I'm also a dad!" Talk about awkward. Then he talked about how he approves of today's styles more. He LOVES scarves.







Doebele-MUS 182
I haven't really come up with an opinion on Dr. Doebele yet. She's my choir teacher, and acts like a typical musician. She slightly reminds me of Mrs. Fosheim, but she isn't as ditsy or involved in any of the students' drama.

Jastram-REL 201
Imagine a much more boring version of Stock's lecture, but with powerpoint. That is my Old Testament class. I honestly hate it the most out of all of my classes. He's extremely monotone and spends most of the time bragging about how he worked with the Dead Sea Scrolls and has visited Israel.

Paape-MATH 119
I have Paape part time in ED 102 as well, for developing my portfolio, but not even every week. He's a great math teacher and has adorable children. Also apparently my mom is good friends with his mom.

Keiper-ED 231
Keiper was here and teaching Children's Lit when my mom went to school here. He's probably one of my favorite teachers. Granted, I already loved to read, he just makes me want to help motivate children to develop that same love of books. A lot of people hate the works he assigns, because it's quite tedious. But I love that I have to do 50 book reports!

Uden-ED 100
She's so energetic! Her love of teaching just oozes out of her! Last night while helping Bekah's ED 102 group film, the guys all were discussing how they think she's a bitch. I disagree completely! I've talked with her outside of class and found that she's extremely helpful and good at explaining things when it comes to upper division questions.

Two Months

I told myself I'd never commemorate another blog post to a boy again so if anything bad would happen I wouldn't have to delete a post...but I'm breaking the rules.

This relationship is probably the craziest thing that could have happened to me, especially when it did.

I'm not going to go into all of the details, but he could not have come at a better time. 

I've been so blessed to have Trevor in my life, even for the short time we have spent together.

And even better, my friends approve. :)

I can't wait to see what God has in store for us together.

Volleyball

Last night I went to CUW's volleyball game against Lakeland. 

Talk about intense.

They lost by 2 in the fifth game. :(

NEW came to cheer on the Falcons. So I got to see Abby again! I'm so grateful I got to see my best friend and my sister again! Even though it's only been since this weekend.

I already can't wait to go back home to Green Bay on October 18th!

Although I get to see Katherine again on Friday and Saturday for Family Weekend! 

Sanity and Schedules

So since I know this coming weekend I need to have a big talk with my mom, which I’m incredibly nervous for, I’m going to try to force myself to blog more often so I don’t LOSE my mind!

Anywho,

Yesterday, I set up my schedule for next semester. It’s going to suck. Here’s a look…

Monday	Tuesday	Wednesday	Thursday	Friday
Religion 203: New Testament(7:30-8:20)	ED 103: Human Relations (8:05-9:20)	Religion 203: New Testament (7:30-8:20)	ED 103: Human Relations (8:05-9:20)	Religion 203: New Testament (7:30-8:20)
Math 120 (10:05-10:55)	Communications 105: Public Speaking (11:35-12:50)	Math 120 (10:05-10:55)	Communications 105: Public Speaking (11:35-12:50)	Math 120(10:05-10:55)
Music 182: Chorale(12:05-12:40)		Music 182: Chorale (12:05-12:40)		Music 182: Chorale (12:05-12:40)
HHP 100 (1:10-2)    1/27-3/14		HHP 100 (1:10-2)    1/27-3/14
Psychology 221       (3:30-6:15)