Trapped in a Dream

Last night was the first performance of my school's Talent Show.. It's the first "drama-related" thing I've been a part of, so it was kind of a new thing for me. I was a part of a mini-musical and sang a duet with my bestie Ana. All went well in Belle, the musical, except for grabbing Macy's crutches right away so she had to hop part way off stage. But other than that, it went off without a hitch, I'd say! As I came back stage after finishing, everyone was greeted with the usual high-fives and "good jobs" from those back stage.

Then the hurry set in place, as Ana and I searched urgently for the microphones we were supposed to be using for our duet. We ended up switching twice until we got the right combination for our voices that wouldn't interfere with each other. As the play that was on stage finished up, I kept going over the words over and over again in my head. That's my biggest fear: getting up there and looking like a complete idiot because I can't remember the words. But as Ana and I got up there, it was kind of amazing to be honest. Blinding spotlight, the undivided attention, and intent listeners. Plus I knew everyone back stage was listening as well.

To be honest, I didn't even think when I was up there. The words came without me having to pull or tug at my memory. I sang from the heart. The lyrics fit with how I feel. "I Dreamed a Dream". 

 Look it up.

Read the words. 

Realize how much they mean. 

Realize that sometimes we waste our dreams. 

But sometimes we don't.

I felt trapped on stage. 

Trapped in a strange dream, but I liked it. 

I liked that you were listening to me. And I liked even more that you looked me in the eyes and truly said I did a great job. And most of all I like that you texted me after to say I sang beautifully and to stay wonderful. That's the dream I'll always be trapped in. And I don't mind.

Which?

I always love the dilemma of not knowing which version of a song is better. Because I love listening to music, in general, obviously. But I love comparing older music with newer versions... So which do you like better?

Song: Man In The Mirror
 Originally By Michael Jackson Man in the Mirror
 New By Keke Palmer from Joyful Noise Man in the Mirror(New)

Song: Don't Stop Believing
 Originally By Journey Don't Stop Believing
 New By Glee Cast Don't Stop Believing(New)


These are just two that I thought off right off of the top of my head. For Man in the Mirror I preferred the new version, sorry MJ. But for Don't Stop Believing I couldn't pick. I really loved the aspect Glee through in there with the jazz ensemble, but I love the original as well.. Let me know what you think!

Blow Off

I'm officially over someone. It feels great. In fact, it feels better than great. After playing with me like that, I deserve better. And I've finally come to realize that.

But..

Part of that talk we had, you made a very important point that we stay friends. Whatever happened to that? Today was the first time you've actually talked to me during the school day since we had that depressing talk. And I'm pretty sure we only talked because we sit next to each other in that class. Fantastic. Thanks for blowing off the promise of staying friends and still hanging out.

Guess what...

I'm almost glad it ended up like this. Your true colors were revealed, and honestly I feel sorry for YOU. You are the one that probably doesn't know what it's like to have a real friend. I have loads of them, and they support me no matter what. Even against guys like you.

So.. Thanks, I guess.

Blah, Blah, Blah

Wow, I haven't posted for a super long time! So, why not do it now? Well you know why? Because I should be studying for exams! But that's exactly what I'm NOT going to do.

So, first off, happy birthday to the LOVELY SARAH! <3 You're 17 years young my darling! ;)

Now, anywho, I've been busy beyond belief! This weekend consisted of basketball, basketball, and more basketball! Thursday we played Oconto, and lost sadly. Friday we had practice, and Saturday we played Sheboygan Christian(won that one EASILY!). Tonight I had a game against Lena. A big game, might I add. Very crucial for when it comes time for regional seeding. We lost. AND I'll probably die in practice tomorrow when my coaches make my team run ten suicides. TEN. If I'm not at school on Wednesday, that would be why.

To add to the busyness of the weekend I had my last Stage One Christmas Cantata. =( I can't believe it's over already. It seems like just yesterday we were rehearsing the music for the first time. I can't wait for next year's cantata. But once it ends it will be even sadder, since it will be my last one! *sniff sniff*

More busyness: exam time. The end of the semester is finally upon us. And for once, I don't want it to end. After this semester, I only have three left in high school. That's so sad, but at the same time I'm ready to be done. This semester I only have two exams, thankfully. And both are on Wednesday. I have English 11 and Algebra 2. I think I should do fine on both. I started working on a packet we were given for Algebra 2 on Friday. I worked through it and it took me two hours just to work through and do the things I knew, without using the book. Now I'm working my way back through with the book working on things I can't remember. I haven't really started studying much for English. I'm not too concerned about it because we're allowed to use our books on part of it. Hopefully I can pull these two subjects out of my brain, even with my lack of sleep lately!

Well, I know this is my first post of the new year, so I probably should add something sappy, like about the past year. 2011 had its ups and downs. If I could go back and change parts, I definitely would. Because it ended on a rather disappointing note. But so far 2012 has been different. I'm not exactly sure how, but it has! 

And this year, I decided I'm not doing any New Year's Resolutions. That way I can't break 'em! I thought ahead this year! ;)