See You Dubb

I'm officially here, completely moved in, and finally feeling a little comfortable. I wasn't sure how long that would take to be honest.
Dorm room:

• Bed: lofted, to the left of door, against wall and a window
• Desk: under bed
• Dresser: under bed
• Wardrobe: right by the door
• Fridge/Microwave: by desk

I've yet to Skype or FaceTime anyone..I'm not sure why. I think that'll make me miss everyone even more than I already do. I didn't think it would be quite this hard.

Today I went on a service even, mainly to get a free shirt. We loaded the bus and left campus. I'd signed up on a list that had said Fabric & Quilt. I assumed it would be inside like organizing a little quilt shop. I was quite wrong. We were brought to the Wisconsin Museum of Quilting and Fiber Arts..to do yard work. It sucked. I'm pretty sure I got a slight farmer's tan from being in the sun. But I got talking with a few new girls, besides Bekah. I even met a few that will be in the same western civilizations class as me! On my way back to my dorm, I took the tunnels. I was a little afraid I'd get lost, but I didn't! On my way up the stairs to Augsburg(my res hall) a football player came up to me and asked if I thought his haircut was scary. I said No, it's quite nice looking actually. He laughed and said Yeah, initiation was fun. He had had facial hair and a decent head of hair at one point,  now he has half of that, literally! He was a very nice guy and the only guy that's talked with me first besides Adam(go figure).

Night one of college life wasn't too bad. Hopefully tonight goes well too!

Laptop

I finally got my graduation present from my parents...a laptop! I absolutely LOVE it. I got an Acer Aspire V5. Part of me wishes I had gotten a laptop sooner, but the other part is quite thankful I didn't. For the past week, if I wasn't out with Trevor, I was sitting in my bedroom on my laptop. My socialization with my family is quite minimal, if not nonexistent at the moment.

I'm currently listening to a mixed cd. I love mixed cds. I used to get them from a friend of mine in like seventh and eighth grade. This cd is comprised of pop-punk music, Trevor's favorites.. He gave it to me as I left his church's parking lot this morning..So far I'm enjoying it quite a bit. It has music by The Dangerous Summer, The Summer Set, Lights Out Dancing, All Time Low, and a few others.

CUW

Less than two weeks from now, I will be moved in. 

Less than two weeks, I will be living with a stranger. 

Less than two weeks, I will have to Skype my boyfriend to see him. 

Less than two weeks, I'll have to deal with unwanted change. 

I'm finally so comfortable where I am at. 

I don't feel ready to venture out in the world. 

I don't feel ready to be independent. 

I don't feel ready to have to resist all of the world's temptations. 

But of all places that I can envision myself flourishing despite the hard times, it is at Concordia. 

I hope it feels like home quicker than it took to make Green Bay my home.

God Is Able

I don't often find myself losing myself in worship..

Some blame hymns, my crumbling faith, my distractions, whatever you wish. I'm not going to blame any of those however. 

Last night I went to a Hillsong Live concert with Trevor at the WI State Fair. I've not had a faith experience like that since probably the National Youth Gathering in 2010, which makes me sort of wish I had gone to this last one. I can't really do anything about that now though.

Back to the point. Hillsong Live concert.

I was afraid I wouldn't really know many of the songs, to my surprise I knew a good chunk of them. The ones I didn't know were catchy enough, luckily. I quickly found myself getting lost in prayer while singing. It was truly one of those moments that you can feel God's presence surround you completely and you want to change.

All I could think about while standing there was how much I've changed and fallen away from God this past year. So many dark nights that shouldn't have happened. So many times I wish I could go back to and talk myself out of those dumb, old habits.

The difference with standing there, thinking about those things, while singing praises was that I didn't feel ashamed. Usually when I find myself thinking of those times, I just begin to hate myself more. 

But last night was different. 

I can honestly say that I have no idea why such a moment occurred last night, but I feel completely refreshed because of it. 

Thank God.

Here's one of the songs that really spoke to me last night..

God Is Able(Live)- Hillsong Live

Goodbyes

I hate goodbyes. And I know this summer there will be one especially hard one. I guess it's sort of my own doing, getting into the situation though.

I feel like there are so many people I'm not going to be able to say goodbye to. I'll probably be on Facebook one day and see them post from their dorm room and realize that I'm not going to see them for quite some time. I hate the idea of that. I really need to work on dealing with change better I guess.