4/29/2013

Someone That Cares

It amazes me the kind of people God has placed in my life. I'm so ungrateful most of the time. 
Even through this year, you still listen to me even though we aren't together anymore. You comfort me when I need it the most, and make me laugh without even realizing it.
It's nice to see that you still care about me, even if it isn't as much as before. You still care a little, otherwise why would you listen at all?
You're still here and I'm fine with us just being friends if it means we stay like this.
Sometimes, this is all I need to be saved from those dark and scary moments, that go by so fast that you don't know what is happening.
So thanks. I really appreciate it.

4/28/2013

Crazy Fast

This year is swiftly coming to an end.. May is only THREE days away! I can hardly believe it.

After this weekend I've come to realize how much has changed in just a year. A year ago at this very moment I was having a great time getting pictures taken at Prom. I was with the guy that would later become my first boyfriend, yay? I was with all of my closest friends. I was on top of the world.

A year later, I sit at home, filling out scholarships. I'm anticipating all that will come within the next few months. I just finished a nice conversation with a rather nice looking guy that will be going to CUW next year as well. Where will that go? There seems to be so many possibilities ahead of me.. All of these questions keep flooding my head about how college will go for me. And I'm sure, just like high school, it will be gone in the blink of an eye.

As all of these thoughts are coming in my head about the next four years at college and beyond, I try to remind myself that there is still a month left of high school. I haven't graduated yet. I still need to do homework, even though I haven't in quite a long time. I still can be with the people I've gotten so close with over these past four years. Prom is still next weekend.. That'll be an adventure in itself, I mean "going just as friends," I'll take it I guess.

How fast will this summer go? Watching twin 6 year old boys, 36 hours a week. I can't wait! It's going to be great, and I get weekends off! I need to make sure I balance this summer out better. I will not just spend it all with one or two select people.. I haven't moved out of Green Bay yet, so why act like I never want to see those people again? Even if it may be starting to become that way...

I think I finally understand why old people tell me to appreciate my life now. It goes by so fast. I can hardly take it all in anymore... *deep breath*

4/23/2013

The Music Will Never End

I'm struggling more this semester than I thought I would.. The lack of music is killing me.
However, I appreciate hymns at church even more.

Next year I'm trying out for Kammerchor at CUW. I'm so nervous, especially since I've had a break this semester from weekly using my voice.

This past weekend helped me make the decision to officially try out for Kammerchor. Originally I wasn't sure, and was just going to try out for Chorale. But I went to Katherine's GBGC concert on Sunday and almost started bawling. I miss music so much..

4/22/2013

Jill

My mom wants me to see Jill again before I leave for college.
She said it would be just because the transition from high school to college is never easy, so it would be good for me to be able to talk with someone before all of the change occurs.
Change is such a strange thing for me.
I hate it, but yet constantly am yearning for it.
I'm a lot more emotionally screwed up than I thought. And that is certainly being proven as the year continues to wind down..
Maybe I do need to see Jill again...

4/21/2013

New Site

I was surfing the web today and came across this site, I'm not sure how good it is but it looked interesting!

http://everycollegegirl.com/

4/09/2013

Undecided

I still haven't decided about Friday... I'm quite torn over it actually.

4/07/2013

Free Week

My parents leave tomorrow morning.
House to myself and Katherine.
Suggestions to do while they're gone?
I asked my parents if I could have all of the senior girls over for a movie night. It was vetoed.
Now do I obey my parents wishes and not have them over? Or go with my gut?

*If any of my friends show up at my house with ideas or decide to happen to spend the night, I'm all for it.

4/06/2013

London and Paris

Well I've been back from Europe for about a week now and my sleeping is finally about back on schedule. Thank goodness!

Here are some of my favorite pictures from the wonderful trip: