Solo & Ensemble: Broadway Picks!

I love Broadway music.

I never really realized that until Wednesday, when a few friends were picking out songs.

Favorite Broadway musicals: Joseph and the Amazing Technicolor Dream Coat, Phantom of the Opera, Wicked(even though I haven't actually seen it, only heard the music), and Les Miserables.

For Solo & Ensemble this year I'm doing Popular from Wicked for my Broadway solo! I'm super excited! Sarah is doing I Could Have Danced All Night from My Fair Lady. Ana is doing Green Finch and Linnet Bird. Talk about three terrific songs! Can't wait!

Productivity

Well since it has been a long weekend, I haven't gotten much done. At all. 

I didn't realize it until today that I still have homework that needs to be finished, and I haven't even started. My productivity on long weekends is always on the sluggish side. Although this has been one of my better weekends. Today, despite sitting in my pajamas until past noon, I got up and went to the gym at school with my sister. She had basketball open gym, so I went along and played a good game of 4 on 4 and got the blood pumping. I also weight lifted for a little bit while I was there. So I guess that was pretty good! Now, off to do something worth while!

Thanksgiving

Well this Thanksgiving definitely wasn't very traditional for me. Which is super sad, I love the classic sit around the family table and eat turkey dinner idea. This year we went to my Aunt Marsha's. And only there. She lives on the family farm. So my other Aunt and her husband and my grandparents were there as well. We watched the Packer game in the living room and had some turkey during it. Now if this was at my other grandma's house(on my dad's side) this wouldn't be allowed. A. Because it would mean eating in a carpeted area of the house. B. Because we would be watching tv during dinner. C. No one prayed before the dinner. D. Everyone ate at their own pace. Well I'm sure I could keep going on with reasons. I would much rather be at my other grandma's house. I love the tradition that is upheld there. Everything fits into place. 

After we ate our lunch at my aunt's we went to my grandma's gas station. Well actually it isn't even a gas station anymore. It's a convenience store/cafe. Oh and everyone registers their deer there as well. So while we were down at the store someone came in with a ten point buck. Everyone rushed out to see it and take pictures. I stayed inside however. Hunting is stupid. I don't understand what's so compelling about it! Apparently it's "a guy thing" and it has to do with "the whole feeling of conquering something" and "being victorious." At least that was Jordan's justification for it. Whatever, I still think it's stupid. But I guess if there wasn't anyone hunting anything more people would be hitting deer while driving. Which would be really bad.. We saw at least 5 on our way home from my aunt's house!

Well I hope everyone had a blessed Thanksgiving and had a good time with their family! Tootles!

From The Heart

I always think it feels amazing when you do something from the bottom of your heart, and really mean it. So I'm going to write. From my heart. About a lot.

Lyrics are probably one way I really express myself. I've always wanted to write a song, but I don't think my brain quite works like that. I used to write stories a lot when I was younger. In fact, I wanted to be an author for the longest time. I always thought that was the connection I had with my mom. She writes for CPH, so I thought that I would be an author just like her. I don't write much now, besides my journal and on here. My posts have been inconsistent on here, and even more inconsistent in my journal. I miss writing. I didn't really realize that until I looked at the lyrics to a few songs. I was reading the lyrics to "You Are More" by Tenth Avenue North and felt a spark of inspiration again. The lyrics are so powerful, and mean so much. That's why part of them are on the top of my blog. Yes, up there. ^^^        

While I took a lot of pride in writing out words, others take a lot of pride in speaking words. I'm not one to speak in a group. In fact I hate talking in front of people. Or to people. Honestly, I'd rather write you a billion emails or texts, than to speak with you in person. I don't know why, but I just can't get the right combination of body language, eye contact, and words to come together. I tend to become a complete mess when talking to people. Well anyways, some people express themselves through their spoken words. They flow out of their mouths, and it sounds so natural. I kind of noticed this on Friday in chapel. We had a worship service led by my school's praise band, "Alethia". As we 'ended' the last song, Jordan led the school in prayer. You could tell it came from the heart. He could have been in front of a thousand more people, and he probably could have done the same thing. Or, he could have been in front of just one person, and talked in the same way. He's a speaker. You could tell just by how he spoke his words. It's the same way I hear my dad lead church on Sunday mornings. That natural sense of charisma. Some how I didn't get that gene from my father. I'm not a speaker as I said already. I wish I was though. I wish I could get up in front of tons and tons of people and talk from the heart. To be able to lead a prayer in front of the whole school. I want others to be able to see/hear my faith. 

Testimonies are a really cool thing. So many people have those life changing moments. That time when they really felt God. Although I think some people emphasize their testimonies too much, and put their faith too much into their control, they can mean so much. If I were to tell someone my faith testimony, not too many people would "oo" or "ah", I'll be honest, I wouldn't if I heard my own from someone else. I think that's why I've done some of the things I have done. I wanted to spice my life up. That's where the mistakes began to fall. I wanted something to be added to my life, and that was wrong. I didn't need anything else. The only thing in my life that should matter is Jesus Christ. And that's truly coming from my heart. I need to be living my life out as an example of Christ, so my heart can be a reflection of Christ. Love is one way to do this. If you love others in the same way Christ loves us, they will do the same. It's a chain effect. And to be honest, I've experienced chains start. In New Orleans, July 2010, I went to the National LCMS Youth Gathering. I would consider that event to be a chain of sorts. It was amazing, I've never been so inspired to be a servant for Christ. While down there you felt so compelled and pushed to be a witness for Christ. His love overflowed from your heart without you even realizing it. I wish I could get that love to begin to overflow again. I miss that feeling of constant compassion towards others. And the constant surrounding of others showing love to me. The sacrificial love that Christ has done for me.

That's what is on my heart...

Ignorance is Bliss

I never realized how accurate this statement was until this past year. It's always better to think things are the way they seem. Even though they usually aren't that way at all. I guess there are a few exceptions to this. But for the most part I think I would rather be happy and not know the truth than to know the truth and feel like crap about everything. Because I'm one of those people that if they feel bad, it effects the rest of the week, and everything I do. Everything is related, no matter what.

Questions

I've been asking myself a lot of questions lately. Mainly ones like, "Is it worth it?" "What is happening?" "Why did this happen?" "What's wrong with me?"

I guess I just want to find those answers, and I don't quite know how to find them. Usually I turn to prayer and music. I've been using both of those. But something always holds me back this time. I just feel like I'm not sure what to do.

Hopefully the questions get answered soon. I'm going to need that reassurance.

Exhausted

I don't know why I've been so extremely tired lately. I've been getting to bed at a decent time and haven't had much caffeine at all. The part that sucks the most is that basketball starts on Wednesday, which means I won't be able to "recover" until the season is done.. In March. =P It's going to be a long winter..

11.11.11

Well today turned out to be quite a turn around point. As you saw yesterday( in my previous post), I've been having a bit of a crummy week. Today wasn't too bad though. My Chemistry teacher didn't get my quiz printed off in time for class, so we didn't take it. Volleyball warm ups for next season came in and I got to be the first to try them on. I got to see my sister play her first basketball game of the season. I had a great time with Jenny and Sadie at the basketball game. Stage One sang at chapel. And, well honestly I'm sure I could keep writing more. I'm just so relieved that my Friday turned out to be nice. Especially because it's November 11, 2011. Yes, I'm sure every blogger out there is writing something about today. And I don't blame them! It's quite an exciting day! I always thought it would be cool to have something extremely monumental happen on this day. Well, at 11:11 pm on 11.11.11 is really the ideal time I always imagined it would happen. I don't think it will though, mainly because I don't think I have anything all that exciting that could happen to me. But I know tomorrow will be an exciting day, so I better go rest up for it! Tootles!

Blood and The Truth

Well, this week has been rather interesting. Honestly, I think it has been one of the longest weeks this school year. My homework has been piling up on me and I didn't really notice until last night.

I think the thing that really affected me this week though was a talk. It's always interesting when you find out where things are between yourself and others. And sometimes that truth can hurt. Well yesterday's "truth" did hurt quite a bit. And I've been having a ton of mixed feelings about it. Everyone I've talked to about it has given me a different reaction though. Half of the people said I've made a lot of progress and a lot of great things are going to happen, but others have said that they're sorry and this type of thing sucks. I keep flipping back and forth about it though, I don't know what to think. And today just helped with that I guess.

Today, I actually felt like a... good(?) person. I don't really know how to classify this, but I feel like a better person, I gave blood! Although I was absolutely, completely nervous to do this, I don't really know why I decided to do it. I guess the posters up at school and the announcements just got to me. I tried to get a few friends to give blood with me, but a few of them got turned away. I'm still really glad I got to give though! It was kind of cool too, having my friends there supporting me. It was great talking with Sydney, Jordan, Erin, and Abby while I just laid there. Although, I must say, I felt a bit helpless just laying there dong nothing while they all stood around me. But while I was laying there I sort of had this weird realization about the truth that was revealed to me yesterday. I guess I've sort of been dwelling on that this whole night.

Well that's pretty much it for tonight, hope your weeks have been gong better than mine!

Disney

I didn't really realize until tonight how much I miss watching Disney movies. I was flipping through channels and saw Beauty and the Beast was on, sadly it was at the end. But then Aladden came on right after! Talk about two great movies! Although I don't like Aladdin that much, I love the one scene where Aladdin and Jasmine are in the air singing "A Whole New World".

When I'm older and have kids, I plan on being the parent that sits with their kids and watches a movie before they go to bed. Preferably a Disney movie. I kind of got this "inspiration" from my aunt and cousins. They choose a movie whenever I see them at my grandma's and we all curl up closely and watch the movie and sing a long with the songs. It's always a great time to get closer with them. Plus I've seen my little cousin, Lucy, really fall in love with the characters. She wants that Prince Charming she sees in the movies.

I kind of had that same reaction while watching my Disney movies tonight. I want a Prince Charming too.